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I feel like my life has ended, you'll need the jab to visit most places, I'm against it so i won't be able to go . my gut is screaming at me not to get it, I trust it but the pressure and fear is eating me up.

I fear I may give in one day, or be forced to do so. I feel depressed knowing I won't be able to visit my favorite stores anymore, or that time would be the last, as well as the restrictions cast upon the unvaccinated.

Most of my family are vaccinated, parents took 2 Pfizer shots, around 3 months ago, older brother around 2 months ( 2 pfizer shots ) . I've seen no side effects so far. I feel guilty saying this but, a darker side in me wishes it'd happen so I can confirm my own theories, the other is relieved.

in retrospect, I'm the black sheep of the family, it is hard being the only one who digs into this kind of stuff. While my parents blindly follow the government and mainstream propaganda, never questions nor think outside the box, that what if their intentions are rather ill, instead of good? As well as most of my peers, it is depressing.

It is incredibly painful to feel alone in this, or feel like you know something others don't, but they won't listen nor give you a chance to explain, and you know they won't understand either. I feel better on this sub, where similar minded and support is met, truly thankful for that.

I feel hopeless and suicidal most days, knowing I can't escape, I wish to end my life rather then being involved. It is cowardly, but truthfully my future is going nowhere. I know I'll need the Vax to do most things.

Edit: just now learnt my brother has a fever, confirmed as vaccine side effect